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All Around Me
I said goodbye to you today. The sadness and the pain was almost too much. I sat in the chair by your coffin listening to a friend talk about the good times when I felt a hand on my shoulder, a whisper of your voice in my ear. I smiled a little sad smile throughout the rest of the service. The invisible touch giving me the strength to finish that first day without you.
I lay in our bed. It takes a long while to fall asleep. I finally drift off and you enter my dreams.they had been dark and trouble before you arrived, but you brought peace and serenity. You hug me and give me that smile I love so much I move back and take a long look. You are younger here. Not like the last time I saw you. There is no pain and you are strong and healthy again. We walk along and talk. I tell you I don’t want to wake up, but you tap my nose and tell me I have no choice. But I don’t know how to go on without you. I reply as tears threaten to fall.
You just smirk and take my hands in yours. I am all around you. In the memories we shared. In the children we raised. I am the sparkle in our grandchildren’s eyes when they get into mischief. When you close your eyes and feel the wind that is my embrace and the gloomy days, each raindrop is a kiss. So go out into the world and live my love. I will be by your side waiting for the day we can hold and touch each other again. Know that I love you as I know I was loved.
I wake to the warmth of the sun shining into our room and sigh as I feel the grief start to loosen and settle. I know it will be hard and the pain will always be there, but in time it will be easier because I can see you all around me.
